Thought of the day: This too shall pass.
My last journal entry was almost an entire three years ago. I haven't been very active here lately, I haven't really drawn much lately. Life was doing a good job at getting in the way - A life that I clung to in hopes for stability, even if it dulled who I was.
That chapter of my life has ended. My relationship ended. He and I were together for 5 years and he broke it off rather nastily. It made me feel that my time putting my love of art and of myself second was am immense waste. I didn't really talk about it. I didn't plaster it on social media because, really, it hurt way too badly. It has been a couple of months now, I'm healing. I'm happy, most of the time. I realize that when I set time aside to simply create that it brightens my mood. Even if I just play around with some digital sketches of some made up characters. I lost a part of myself that I'm brushing the dust off of. I let him define me, I let him dictate what I should be proud of myself for. Now I'm me again, or getting back to her. The clumsy, air-headed, bubbly girl that he made me feel ashamed to be.
A coworker of mine said to me today: "You are such a happy person." My initial thought: "Yeah, I am." And that made me smile.
Happy holidays and warm wishes.